School’s Out!

Just have to say I’m a SENIOR!!! I’m so excited..but you know what, more then that, I’m excited I still have some time to grow and change and make an impact around here. Yeah, it’ll be great to graduate..but it’s not going to be here for a little while. Until then, I’m just gonna focus on here and now. and by the way, SMITE is gonna rock..just had to say that! Rausch and Wickert-it’s gonna be a blast girls..”I’m not washing my hair, taking a shower, or shaving:)!” LOL..fun times!! Eve-Yeah Goodwill shorts..:) Angela-what can I say girl, your a blast! It’s gonna be so hot, but I bet it’ll be one of those experiences of a lifetime! And at least we’ll have good abs from laughing all the time:) I can’t wait..

I’m out..see ya

Reflections

Wow..hard to believe it, but another school year has come and gone. I’m going to be a senior and that is completely beyond my scope of reasoning..it seems like yesterday I was in 7th grade. My how the time has flown. As I was finishing up my last exams today and heading home, one of my teachers said to me, “well, how’s it feel to be a senior?” My first thought was, wait a second, I’m not a senior. I drove off thinking, my how many things about this year I wish I could have done differently. I wish I hadn’t gotten in so many fights with Emily..I love that girl so much. But sometimes our strong personalities and need to be right got in the way..I’m so thankful she is forgiving. And I wish I hadn’t complained so much..I wish I had learned to enjoy more about life, then always complaining about it. I wish I had taken my walk with God more seriously..He’s shown me lately how important time with Him should be..I wish I had made it more of a priority. But in all of those things, I’m so thankful for the lessons I learned. They weren’t always easy and sometimes I thought they were dumb-but reality is, each time something came up this year, I learned more about my character and saw more ways I need to grow. Sadly, my perfectionism got in the way and made me slow to admit my wrong, but God is working on me in that area. I also look back on the good things-I made some awesome friends, experienced some fun things, and did things I would never have dreamed of doing. I am looking forward to next year, but I am also sad it is my last. I have finally gotten excited about God, my school, and my church-I only wish I had more time to make an impact. I also learned a lot about trusting in God. So many times I felt like the ground was falling out beneath my feet-but then I realized it was just God picking me up and saying,”Ok, it’s my turn to be in control.” So while, I have my regrets, I also have many more times I look back and remember with a smile. As I close this chapter of my life and begin to embark on a new one I can’t wait to see what’s in store. I’m so thankful for my friends, and my family, and most importantly my God. He is the beginning and the end and forever He will reign. Have a great summer everyone!

SATs

SATs are the best way to ruin someone’s confidence and future plans. One bad day and you are stuck going to a community college studying the art of folding clothes. It’s like-who cares. Colleges should pick a new equaller-one that is actually possible to do well on if you are not a genius. You can be a staight A student..but get a lousy SAT score and be marked forever. Not to mention that once you take them the first time, it kinda ruins your desire to ever take them again. 4 hours of doing the same thing over and over-talk about boring. So to all of you who have not taken them yet-good luck. May you defeat ETS or perish in the attempt. 🙂

*By the way-I’m sure you will get into college no matter what you get on them*

I decided I hate moving on. I know it is a necessary part of life-people must move on and so must I-but that still doesn’t mean I like it. Sometimes I question God’s doing in things-it’s as if, I have all this knowledge-I know God is good, His way is perfect..but then, BANG-someone decides it is time to move on. And of course, it is usually someone very near to my heart, someone I respect and look up too. But it is not my place to question God..and while I still don’t like it, I will have to put my trust in God and learn to rely on Him.

This was kinda sprung from reading Mr. Harmless’ blog. I was struck once again with the fact that he is leaving. But like he said, God is good. And has a plan for all of us.

God’s grace is amazing! Do you realize that? Lately, I have been overwhelmed by the presence of God’s grace in my life. I am amazed that I can get up every morning and trust that God has my life in His hands. Yes, I’ve shed my share of tears lately-but I am over and over reminded that God is enough. He has provided for me in some awesome ways. And although my dad is still jobless-I know this is part of His plan too. If for no other reason then to bring me to a place of utter reliance on God. Right now-I have no idea how things are going to turn out. I have no idea where the money I need is going to come from or where my life is going to go. All I am sure of is that my God is good. And He causes all things to work for the good of those who love Him. Is it easy? No Can I say I have been joyful in all things? No But I have been reminded over and over that my joy comes from God. As the psalmist said-“The Joy of the Lord is my Strength!” I heard a saying the other day; it went something like-God may not always be on time but He is never late. In my mind-I would have liked my dad to get a job the day after he lost it. But I guess God had a different idea in mind. And I am glad that He has-I truly am. I have come to a place of reliance on God and He has continued to humble me. I hate asking for help-knowing I’m on the receiving end of aid..but it is my pride that causes those feelings. Instead of being ashamed, I have learned to be thankful. I have learned that only God can provide. Even if He is providing through others-He is still providing. So I am praying and waiting-God will not fail. He promised to never leave nor forsake me. I am hiding in the shadow of His wings and trusting in Him as my rock.

I seem to have run out of the blogging juices-they just aren’t flowing. But yet, I am still inclined to write. So when I do think of something to say I will write..right now I have to eat or I would finish my thought..

This was the title for this weeks blog, and as I was thinking about it, one thought came into my head..will I ever make it to heaven? It honestly doesn’t seem like it’s coming fast enough. not that I want to die tomorrow..but I really can’t wait for heaven. there have been some things lately that in my mind seem like they went really wrong..I know God has a perfect plan, but I really can’t wait to get to heaven and never have a problem again. It’s going to be beyond words. To echo a song by Mercy Me, “I can only imagine..” Seeing Christ face to face is going to be so awesome. I really can’t wait until this life is over. But I know this life is our preparation-our training. God will give me the grace to handle it. and I have the greatest thing to look forward to. unlike soldiers training for war, i’m training for heaven! So will I ever make it? You bet I will! But until that day I’m going to put my focus on pleasing Christ and loving God!