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it’s been a weird weekend..:/
Got a picture of you I carry in my heart
Close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark
Got a memory of you I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me when the nights get cold
If you asked me how I’m doin’ I’d say just fine But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you
After all this time you’re still with me it’s true
Somehow you remain locked so deep insideBaby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by
I still wait for the phone in the middle of the night
Thinkin’ you might call me if your dreams don’t turn out right
And it still amazes me that I lie here in the dark
Wishin’ you were next to me, with your head against my heart
If you asked me how I’m doing I’d say just fine But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you
After all this time you’re still with me it’s true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by
Minutes turn to hours, and the hours to days
Seems it’s been forever that I’ve felt this way
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you
After all this time you’re still with me it’s true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes byYou May Also Like
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Confused..
so I decided life is unfair…
Why in the world do people think that a 19 year old has enough wisdom to decide what they would be happy doing for the rest of their life? like seriously..I mean, I know you have those people with passions..things they have always wanted to do and they go to college and do it..and are happy. I have never been one of those people. I have never in my life been satisfied with something. Why I thought things would change when I came to college I don’t know. but here I am, a year into college with absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. I mean, I know..I have so many dreams, passions, and desires..but how to put them all into a major and a decision seems impossible. and how to decide between the practical and the dream. do you go for what you know is safe or do you chase after a dream that might never happen? and do you do what your parents want or what you want–even though they have lots more knowledge then you do. And do you find a reason for doing it..or do you just do it and grit your teeth and hope things turn out ok on the other side? and what about what everyone says..do you listen to their advice or their experiences? it’s so confusing..I wish God would just whisper in my ears what I was supposed to do with my life. that would def. simplify things. He could throw in who I am gonna marry too:) but anyways..I’m just frustrated and overwhelmed and ready to be home..I miss my family..and I’m tired of living out of a suitcase.
..amanda
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wow..it’s been awhile..
so everyone has probably stopped reading this by now..heck, I would have long ago. but I know it’s been so long since I have written. It’s funny how you go through stages in your life..I used to keep a journal every day and the I switched to writing in my blog and then I found a friend with whom I shared everything..and now I am back to blogging. At least for today. I missed it..this old blog and me have had many memories together.
so I finished my first year of college..can you believe it?! I did it! I am no longer a college freshman. it’s crazy to think about that I am going to be a sophomore in college..I am going to turn 20 in December..20!! that is insane. I remember yesterday being in 7th grade and thinking it was going to be an eternity till I got my liscense. it was a good first year of college. Not a great one..but not awful for the most part. it was HARD> really hard. something I was definately not prepared for. But God is faithful. He showed me how His strength is the only thing that will get me through life. He proved to me time and time again that He is protecting me even when I am being stupid. And He showed me how the people in my life are there so I can minister to and learn from..not judge or turn away. I have so many memories from this year..and I have to say God blessed me with the most amazing roommates in the world!! They have become some of my closest friends and I am thinking might end up as bridesmaids someday..:) although that opens a whole different can of worms..one I will leave for a different time..for now, just know I am no where close to wanting to get married nor are there any guys on the horizon. I know the right guy is out there somewhere..one crazy enough for me..and God will bring him into my life at exactly the right time.
what else..I joined a sorority this year..that was a blast! I love my new sisters with everything in me..they are my mission field. God gave me a field white for the harvest and is giving me the strength and wisdom to know how to harvest it and how to share His love with them. It has been amazing.
I still have no idea what to do with my life..I was so sure before I came to college..now I am utterly lost. I know I want to go to Africa and I want to adopt a baby girl from China and I want to help people who can’t help themselves..but how to accomplish all that is still out of my reach. I am praying for God to open doors and lead me in the right direction as far as majors, summer plans, future plans etc. I know He has a plan for my life and I can’t wait to see what it is.
well, I have turned into an old lady this summer and am about to head to bed..yes, it is 9:43 and I am getting ready to head to bed. I know, it’s sad..but what can I say..all my nights of staying up till 3 and 4 in the morning are catching up to me!:)
thanks for listening to my ramblings..I will try and update this more often! if anyone still reads this..I love ya!