I just felt the need to write in my blog. It has been one of those weeks that can only be explained and made better through a blog post. I am back at school and it is going well. Things are better then expected with roommates and life is slowly getting busier, but still manageable. I have been working all week which has been crazy fun but crazy tiring. The one thing I really want right now is my pillow and my bed..but alas, I am stuck in a computer lab until 6 tonight. I played volleyball last night and hurt my wrist..typing is a challenge..but lucky for me, I have enough frustration to type through the pain.

so there is this boy..right..it’s always about a boy:) but I really like this one…like a lot..and I don’t know. I should hate him. he blew me off for three months, and just when I start to get an inch closer shoves me away again. So why can’t I just move on. that’s what logic says. But I’m a fixer..I love to fix things. I don’t like to leave things un-done or leave people without making their lives better..which I am coming to see isn’t usually even a reality..but I try nonetheless. However, it is impossible when they won’t let you help them or be part of their life. so that is where I am right now..wanting so bad to be part of his life and realizing that I should probably just move on….

but it’s hard…and I’m tired..and in pain…and missing my family something terribly awful..

ok..so I decided I should update the few readers I have left..

Life has gotten somewhat better since the last time I wrote. God is amazing that is one thing I will say for sure! He always shows up right when I am at my lowest..which has happened a lot this summer. Trying to change your life doesn’t come without trouble from the devil. Of course, he had me right where he wanted me..and I decided that was far from where God wanted me.

God has been faithful in providing the finances I needed for college which is a huge answer to prayers and my plans for next summer which I was majorly stressed out about are falling into place and giving me a bigger reason to trust God for provided everything I need.

I am also getting so excited to go back to school…I was in Florida last week and I got to see two of my friends and got so excited..I realized that God has blessed me with some amazing friends, I just have to take the extra time to build the relationships.

one thing I have noticed is that I get stressed and overwhelmed very quickly..I do’nt know why, but it seems like I very quickly jump to the, “runinng around like a chicken with it’s head cut off” stage so that is the biggest thing I am going to work on for the fall..just breathing and making time for the things that are imporant.

that’s all for now..

amanda